Showing posts with label Jesus Christ. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Jesus Christ. Show all posts

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Oh death, where is your sting?

In the last couple of weeks, I have come face to face with death. It started with the tragic, sudden death of my uncle Jay, which certainly hit close to home, and even now is still difficult to believe. Now, famous Apple CEO Steve Jobs has died, which has been a hot topic of discussion. Halloween is also fast approaching, so retail stores are stocking their shelves with Chinese trinkets that point, directly and indirectly, to death.

I have thought a lot about death lately, and have concluded that it is a wicked (perhaps the most wicked) perversion of God’s creative order. God is Himself life. Death, by definition, is the antithesis to life, and the logical progression of a creation separated from the Author of life. Romans 5:12 says that death enters through sin. Sin is the oxygen that fuels the fire of death. To deal with sin is to deal directly with death itself.

I know someone who has become obsessed with self-preservation. Because of this, she orders her entire life around extending it. She is rigidly disciplined about what she eats, what activities she enjoys, when she sleeps, what the air quality is around her, and the list goes on and on. She holistically has ordered her life around trying to avoid the inevitable. Her situation is not unique, either. Billions of dollars is spent on life extension and preservation, and it is all aimed at preserving life with sin. Everyone agrees that life is good, and death is bad, but many fail to make connection between our dependence on the author of life, and how sin separates us from Him, which naturally results in death.

Below is the second half of my uncle’s eulogy. I attempted to bring this issue to the forefront of the minds of the individuals who were there, and show them that their only hope is to trust and treasure the death of the source of life Himself, and see His power over death in His resurrection. My only regret (though I’m not sure how I would incorporate this concisely to mainly unbelievers) is that I did not clearly explain spiritual death, of which physical death is only a precursor. Perhaps there will be more opportunities in the future. As a result of all of this, the gospel has never been sweeter to me. Take a moment now to thank God for sacrificing His own Son so we could be free from sin and death

Today, we’re sad that he’s gone. We want to celebrate his life, but no one here can miss the obvious: death is evil, and it is wrong. Everyone recognizes the fact that death is an intrusion, it’s invasive. Even though it is a certainty for all of us, we like to pretend that it doesn’t exist. I want to honor my uncle, not just by celebrating his life, but by explaining why the reality of death should not intimidate or frighten any of us. We don’t need to be afraid of it. We don’t need to ignore it!

The truth is, God created everything… and he created it good (Gen 1:31). He created us, men and women, without death. He is good to us, and gives us many good things: life, family, love, food, shelter. We owe our existence to Him. He designed this world without death, but we failed. He said to Adam, “do not eat this fruit, or you will die.” Adam did not listen, and neither do we. We impose upon ourselves death by our sin. We have all sinned against God, and death, as horrible and tragic as it is, is the result.

This is what the Bible says: “therefore, just as through one man (Adam), sin entered the world, and death through sin, and so… death spread to all men, to you, to me, to your neighbor, cousin, brother, aunt, uncle… and now, to Jay… He said this death spread to all people because all sinned. We don’t have to wonder why. We know. Of course, Physical death is only a precursor to the real tragedy, which is spiritual death, and complete separation from God.

What we need is our sin problem to be dealt with. And here’s the good news: it was! The reason Jesus Christ came, and lived the life He lived, was so He could take upon Himself the punishment for our sins, namely death. He paid the ultimate price for our freedom by taking upon Himself what we deserve because of our rebellion, and if you would turn from your sins, and turn towards Him, He will save you, and physical death will be something you no longer have to fear. Funerals truly become celebrations because we know that it is not the end. Your funeral will truly be a celebration not just because you have lived a good life, but because your funeral is only the beginning of your life.

Jesus said “I am the resurrection and the life, whoever believes in me will live, even if he dies. And everyone who lives and believes in Me will live even if he dies (John 11:25-26a). Christ died for our sins, and he was buried, and he was raised on the third day. Jesus Christ has been raised from the dead, the first fruits of those, like my uncle Jay, who are dead. For since by a man came death, by a man also came the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ all will be made alive (I Cor 15:3b-4; 20-22).”

If you want to honor Jay’s death, then strike the fear of death from your hearts, in this life and the next, by turning from your sin, and trusting and believing the only one with the power to conquer sin and death, Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

The Work of the Spirit in the World.

For a paper I did recently on an aspect of the doctrine of the Holy Spirit, I choose to exposit John 16:8-11, namely, what Christ taught about the Spirit’s ministry to the unbelieving world. I was encouraged to see how thoroughly Christo-centric and evangelistic it is. I summarized the 8 page exposition in about a page, and I’m posting it here with the hope that you will be encouraged to see the grace and mercy of our Lord, which is still active through the ministry of His Spirit in the world.


The Spirit’s ministry in this passage is threefold, the first of which is the conviction of sin, which works to enlighten individuals of their spiritual condition. Individuals would not be convicted of their sin in a judicial sense if they believed in Jesus, so the Spirit convicts unbelievers of the reality of their condition apart from belief in Christ. He also, through his disciples and His Word, convicts the world of righteousness. Through this ministry, unbelievers are confronted with the futility of their own attempts at righteousness because of the unattainable and shining righteousness of Jesus Christ. His ascension to the right hand of the Father proves His righteousness to be the only acceptable righteousness. Hopefully, under this conviction, the individual will sense their need for that righteousness, and appeal to Christ, who freely gives it to those who trust Him.

The Spirit also convicts the world of judgment. The source behind the world’s system of judgment has been judged (16:11), whereas Jesus Christ is the judge (John 5:22). One may have a sense of their own sin and see their need for righteousness, but will be unable to solve the problem by changing the standards of judgment in their favor, because their ruler has been judged. Even if their own judgment declares them innocent on whatever creative grounds they may concoct (usually an elaborate system of self-righteousness, i.e. Mormons, JW’s, Roman Catholics, cultural fundamentalists, Pharisees, ect.), it will be appealed to a higher court, where Christ Himself will judge. The hope is, under this conviction, the unbeliever will appeal to the judge for mercy and ask for an alien righteousness, which, again, will be freely given to those who believe in Him. Only Christ’s sacrificial death and resurrection makes this offer possible.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Tith a what?

We have heard it before: The ultimate definition of love is "the laying down of one's life for another." When Christians hear that, they immediately think of the death of Jesus, who selflessly "laid aside His life" (died) for the benefit of His beloved. The Apostle John reiterates this in I John 3:16, and although the death of His Lord may be one thing that was on His mind, could he have been alluding to something else? If John wanted to say true love is demonstrated by the sacrificial death of someone on behalf of another, why didn't he say that? The word John uses is a Greek word, τιθημι (tith-ay-me), which simply means "to lay aside." The "laying aside" of one's life may include dying, but that is only one aspect.

What characterized our Lord was not just His sacrificial death on our behalf, but His sacrificial life. Jesus said "The Son of Man came not to be served, but to serve, and give His life as a ransom for many." He demonstrated the pattern in John 13 by washing His disciples feet shortly before His death. He set the pattern of what supreme love is. For the Savior, supreme love meant taking upon Himself the full measure of God's wrath on our behalf, but loving one another may not require a sacrificial death, but it does require a sacrificial life.

If we are to love as Jesus commands us, we must "lay aside" our lives for one another. This does not mean, as some may believe, that we can go on living our lives to please ourselves, but be willing, when the moment is right, to sacrifice our physical lives in order to allow another person to live, it means moment by moment, we sacrifice our own preferences, resources, time, energy, will, and desires for the benefit of one another. I confess to you I just read that sentence, and I'm convicted. If you are convicted, also, because you recognize your own insufficiency to love in this way, than be sure to thank your God, who loves us in this way, and is so patient with us, and may we all, by the power of His Spirit, learn to love each other that way.

Friday, April 8, 2011

The Only Wise God

Well, I haven't quite figured out how to blog my sermons yet, but I do want it to be on here. I am just going to copy my notes for now, and as I blog more, hopefully I will get it more organized. Oh, and about going to Disneyland, that is a euphemism for deciding what I will leave in and leave out in my message.




SUMMARY OF ROMANS:

The need for God’s righteousness (1:18-3:20)

The provision of God’s righteousness (3:21-5:21)

The demonstration of God’s righteousness (sanctification) (6:1-8:39)

The vindication of God’s righteousness (restoration of Israel) (9:1-11:36)

The behavior of God’s righteousness (12:1-15:13)

Conclusion (15:14-16:27)

Here is the point: you need a righteousness that is not your own. You cannot earn it, you can’t buy it, you won’t find it anywhere other than in Jesus Christ. “I am the way, the truth, and the life! No one comes to the Father but by me!” If you did not come away from this study understanding your need for perfect righteousness and God’s provision of that righteousness in His Son, than I am afraid we have done you a great disservice.

Remember, in this doxology, Paul is worshipping! He is not giving a theological treatise.

I. The Power

a. Who is able? God or man. How you answer determines how you trust.

b. He establishes

c. The power is not the message, it is the God! We do not put out faith in a book, rather, we put it in the God who wrote it. If I wrote you a letter saying you need to serve jury duty, it would mean nothing. If the state of California did, however, that would make a difference. Same words, but different authority. We believe it is important because He said it was important.

d. What is the message?

Jesus Christ, and Him crucified. It is the message Paul articulates throughout this whole book. Through His death and resurrection, Jesus Christ provides for us the perfect righteousness we need to stand justified by God. Paul says in Corinthians he was determined to know nothing among them except Jesus Christ and Him crucified. This was “Paul’s Gospel.” (read Romans 5:6-11) Paul’s gospel was not unique to Paul.

II. The Wonder: Jesus was not plan B.

a. The gospel kept secret (from long ages past)

b. The gospel revealed according to plan

God took several thousand years to weave together this gospel throughout redemptive history! And it is “by the Scriptures of the prophets” in other words, it was prophesied by them! And then, as if God was in heaven the whole time, with His finger up, just waiting, watching Abraham have Isaac, seeing the birth of a nation, watching them fall into apostasy, all the while giving clues about this coming redeemer with carefully placed prophecies throughout the whole testament, He is just waiting, and then, “at the proper time, He says “now.” This gospel happened according to the commandment of God! That is what Paul is saying, and that is why he worships! Listen to what Peter says in his first sermon: “This man, delivered over by the predetermined plan and foreknowledge of God you nailed to a cross by the hands of godless men and put Him to death.” They were blind. They didn’t see it. Turn to Peter 1:10, and lets read what He says about this mystery.

This was IT. This was what they had waited for, all controlled by His command, and Jesus, through His apostles makes the gospel known to the world. This mystery, so important to Paul, is proclaimed to the world.

III. The Response: Obedience of faith.

This is new covenant language. The Jews always had a problem remaining faithful. The big difference is not just gentile inclusion, but a new heart indwelt with the Spirit of God that enables us to love God and seek after Him. (Jer 31:31,33). This should also be the natural response of everyone who hears and believes the gospel.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Turn your eyes upon Jesus...

I am noticing that as I mature in my Christian life, the gap between God and I seems to be getting bigger. The truth is, I'm just getting a better picture of how big that gap (chasm?) actually is. Remarkably, the larger that gap appears to be, the bigger Jesus becomes. I may never know how large that gap is this side of glory. I'll pay lip service to its immensity, but will I truly feel the weight of it? I believe if I did, Christ, and what He has done, would be far more precious to me than He is.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

well well well...

A lot has happened since I started this little faith journey. I learned Biblical Hebrew and Greek, coached a junior high girls soccer team, started playing guitar for 4 and 5 year olds, learned all sorts of things about church history, started Grant Horner's bible reading plan and have actually been keeping up with it, made the wonderful switch from PC to Mac, made a ton of new friends, got a new job as an apartment complex manager, got to preach to k-9th graders (in three separate sessions) twice, will be (God willing) the proud father of a little girl in just a little while, have separated completely from the military, is seriously reconsidering some of the "values" I have always just assumed should be important, and even debated for, as long as I can remember (mostly political), am learning to love my wife more, and lead my family, am more convinced now than I ever have been that Jesus Christ is the only hope for this world... now I just need to learn to articulate that.

now I'm off to change my son's stinky diaper. It's ok, though, in 1 week we begin 3 days of intense, gladiator potty training.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

The Times They Are a-Changing...

I'm not sure how long this will last, but I want to start writing again. I've been apprehensive for a couple of reasons, not the least of which being my own immaturity. I've been very dogmatic about several things in the past, and since coming out here, I've begun to see my own immaturity. I'm learning to choose the hills I die on, because there is nothing worse than feeling it is necessary to to combat your own presupposition of what someone else's position may be. I've done that many times, blinded by my own pride, and paid dearly for it. Writing has always been difficult for me not because I don't love it, I do, but because it's hard to communicate clearly sometimes.

To give everyone a brief update, I want to start by telling everyone what I am thankful for:

First and foremost, I am thankful for Jesus Christ. Jesus is so much more than I could ever understand this side of heaven. What I do understand gives me more comfort than anything else. He is my Lord, my Savior, and my friend. Everything I cannot do to justify myself before God He has done for me, and because of that, I am so very thankful. He has given me His Spirit to comfort me, enlighten His Word to me, and guide me through life, and I depend on that to keep myself from going crazy. Each day, I learn more and more to lean on His guidance and submit to what He has said in His Word. That may be difficult for some people to understand, and as someone outside of Christianity looking in, it may even seem a little cooky. I don't blame you, especially what has been done "in the name of Jesus Christ" in the past.

I am also thankful for the Word of God. Since coming out here, I have been able to study the Bible more deeply. In that process, I have been exposed to my own hypocrisy, and received fresh insight into why Jesus Christ is so precious.

I am also very thankful for TMS and GCC. I have met so many different people from all sorts of walks of life that are learning to love God. I am being challenged to love my family, manage my time, and love God unlike I have ever been before. I'm also discovering how little I know in the grand scheme of things, and how much more I have to learn about everything.

I am thankful for life, health, provision, shelter, care, etc. Since coming out here, I have had every need met in some amazing and generous ways. People do not hesitate to give. We lived with a family for free for six months, got all of our furniture donated to us for free, had dozens of meals cooked for us, and have seen God's continuous provision the entire time we've been out here.

I am also thankful for the friends God has given me out here. I have met a lot of people that encourage me, and I'm so thankful for all of them, and look forward to many years of friendship.

For the sake of Brevity, I'll end there, and say more another day.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

I John 3:2

"...we shall see Him as He is."


We have all done it, especially in this society, and I'm sure it's not difficult to picture the typical country pastor who cleverly says in response to compliments, "I wish my wife thought of me the same as you do, but she can't because she has to live with me!" In a society swarming with... how do I say this gently... an overemphasized appreciation for individuals, it's not too long before we realize the ideas we have in our minds about even the saintliest of God's servants paints a far too rosy picture for them. I'm sure they, like ourselves, want those things to be true about them, but it's not the reality. I'm reminded of one godly man who was urged by his supporters to respond to harsh slander and criticism. Everyone was expecting him to be appalled by what was said, and send out a well reasoned defense of his character, which was above reproach, but after reading the comments, he said to his supporters, "gentlemen, I am all of those things and more."

Now there is a man with a correct view of himself. Whether or not the things said about him were true wasn't important. He understood that the worst thing someone could say about him still fell short of who he really was apart from Christ. He wasn't interested in defending his character because why defend a man he has been trying to kill since he was introduced to Christ?

Jesus Christ has the opposite problem. Any exultation or words of praise you could offer Christ still fall short of what He deserves. Jesus Christ presents for us the perfect juxtaposition to humanity at it's best. You may think you appreciate Christ now, but just wait until you see what He is REALLY like! When you think of the depth and richness of that statement, "We shall see Him as He is." It makes you wonder why you would want to have anything to do with yourself any longer. I would challenge all of you to take a good, hard look at who you are "in the inner-most parts" and then think about who Christ is. When you understand those two things, you're ready to worship.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

So I've been thinking...

I'm very thankful for mass media. It has it's advantages and disadvantages, but in the context I'm thinking of, I'm thankful for it. I have grown tremendously as a Christian thanks to the preaching available on the radio, and on websites like desiringgod.org and gty.org. I used to drive to and from work and hear R.C. Sproul, John Piper, John Macarthur, and Allistair Begg everyday. It was men like Steve Lawson that inspired me to preach, and reading sermons by Charles Spurgeon, J.C. Ryle, D. Martin Lloyd Jones, and John Owen helped bring my mind even closer to God, and gave me a true appreciation for His Word.

I am in seminary to learn how to preach and teach God's Word. TMS is known for training expositors, and by God's grace, that's what I'll be, but it's not what I want to be known for. The simple fact is this: If people want to hear great preaching, they have a plethora of resources available to them, from the comfort of thier own homes, at anytime they wish. I haven't checked the facts, but I am convinced you could listen to four hours of solid, excellent preaching a day, and still not exhaust the wealth of exposition that exists in digital media after several years, or even several decades. If you want to hear John Piper's series on justification at 3AM, your a mouse click away. Along with that, we have more resources in printed form that has been developed over the last 2000 years of church history. These books have been written by brilliant men on just about every subject conceivable, and while I would never suggest that we have been given enough time to plumb the depths of Scripture itself, nor do I want to discourage people from continuing that tradition, I will say this...

Before anything else, we need to be shepherds. We shepherd our family first, and then our flocks. We prepare people for the work of the ministry. It reminds me of when Satan took Jesus to a high mountain, and said, "All these things I will give you, if you fall down and worship me" If anyone deserved the world, it was Jesus, but the cost was too great. Jesus choose a life of humility. He chose to be a shepherd, a good shepherd, "who lays down His life for His sheep." It seems silly when in our weakness we desire the praise of other people. It's as if we forget that we have God Himself who walks with us. God equips us, enlightens us, enables us, and empowers us to do all things for His glory. And He does it so we can pass on His legacy, not ours.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

How Seaworthy is my vessel?

"I gravely question whether some of us will find our vessels, when far out to sea, to be quite so seaworthy as we think them." -Spurgeon

As part of my reading requirement for my ministries course, I am required to read 6 books over the course of the semester, none of which I will be tested on. I thought it would be a perfect opportunity to practice reading quickly, and gave myself 90 minutes to read 50 or so pages. This was a mistake, because this particular section of reading is from "Lectures To My Students" by Charles Spurgeon. The better part of wisdom (no, not my wife) told me to read this intently instead of treating it as an academic exercise, and as a result I have been richly blessed. I've paused several times to consider his admonishments and exhortations, and have tried to read slowly because I don't want to miss any of it.

The quote above is what has caused me to write this because I have often thought about how I will react when true trials come. What I can tell you is I'm not worried about it. In fact, I am as sure that I will be sustained through trials as I am of my salvation simply because the same God that has saved me will sustain me. (Philippians 1:6) The other thing I am assured of is that there will be trials, because the same Word that promises my salvation promises those as well.

Right now, I feel like I'm in some sort of incubator. I have a wonderful family, a wonderful wife that takes care of me, I am part of a church that has been such a blessing to me, and it's pastored by a dear friend who isn't shy about reproving me, but is also very patient with me. Here at TMS I am surrounded by men who pray for me dilligently, and, well, don't even get me started on the Downers, who have not only opened there home to me, but have consistently served me and fed me since I got here more than two weeks ago.

Still, all of these things stand in the shadow of God's sovereign work in my own heart, and in His provision through His people. I have enjoyed such wonderul fellowship with Him, and His Word has been such a joy and comfort to me. I was expecting this to be more difficult, but God has graciously allowed me to be productive, clean, and organized, which, if you know me, is a miracle in and of itself.

All this to say, I don't know when harder trials will come, and I'll also say there are difficult things I am dealing with now in spite of this. Things like the uncertainty of finances and where we will live, having Marie back home finishing up the house with my parents, and not being there to help. Trying to figure out how I will pay for a large mortgage while I'm out here, trying to anticipate logistical things I am neglecting or haven't thought about, (these are things you can be praying for) but in the midst of these things, I am confident that God will provide in every respect, and for that I am eternally grateful. Most of those things are physical, and I wouldn't trade any of them for the sweet fellowship with God I have been enjoying. I wouldn't trade that for any circumstance.

Whom have I heaven but You? And besides you, I desire nothing on earth

Oh Lord, please let this last...

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

From Pentecost to Wittenburg...

Today was the orientation period for a new class called "Historical Theology," and I was more than intrigued. The class is taught by Nathan Busenitz, and is a survey of Christian history from Pentecost to the pre-Reformation period. What is so interesting to me is how so many people, including myself, claim to love history, love the church, but know little or absolutely nothing about what happened in the church for 1500 years. Oh, sure, I could spout on all day long about Luther, and Calvin, and Swingli. I could tell you about Edwards, and Whitfield, the Puritans, and Spurgeon, all the way up to today. My professor had a much better summary, but the point is this: Even if I had a thorough knowledge of Reformation history, I cannot claim to know much about church history. They are two very seperate things. While I confess that because of the printing press there is far more material available on the reformation period, it would be foolish of me to assume that a knowledge of the reformation can serve as any foundation for a thorough knowledge of church history. On the contrary, the Reformation was built on a thorough and accurate knowledge of church history. Men like Luther, Calvin, and Zwingli did not just come up with their ideas out of thin air, they developed what had been preserved by God through the age of the history of the church, and I don't think it's to bold to suggest that if we were to speak to these men, they would point us back to men they learned from, who I'm sure would point us back further to men they learned from, who I know would point us even further back to where they received their doctrine, and where does that lead us? Simple: To a seemingly insignificant Jewish carpenter who was in fact God in the flesh. His Words were the very essence and nature of Truth Itself, and what were they? (among other things...)

"Truly, truly, I say to you, he who hears My Word, and believes in Him who sent me has eternal life."

I believe there is great value in studying church history, and confess I am guilty of making the mistake of thinking that the church age started in Pentecost, and then jumped in a time machine for 1500 years, and popped out again in Germany. I look forward to studying my brothers and sisters before me who, like Luther and Calvin, understood the Words of Jesus that I shared with you above, and who, also like Luther and Calvin, have joined the cloud of witnesses that will praise His name forever.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Our anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, but only empties today of its strength...

God has graciously redeemed me from anxiety, and I am thankful. I have had bouts against it now and then, but for the most part, it has been smooth. Today, I'm in Denver, and it doesn't look like I'll be able to hang out with anyone from here. I'm debating just driving as far as I can, and sleeping the evening in the van, but we'll see. It would be nice to have a few hours of leisure between here and Palmdale. if you're wondering about the quote, it's from Spurgeon.

Here is the update:

I drove over 900 miles yesterday, and will drive another 1000 tomorrow. I very much enjoy driving by myself. I have a lot of time to think, pray, observe, and enjoy the relaxation. I finally received tuition reimbursement today, so I have enough to get a place to stay, or pay my mortgage, whichever is required. One prayer request I have, is that in this period of financial uncertainy, The Lord will make it clear to us where we should be tithing, and how much. There is an abundance of ministries we want to support, Lifegate, Capitol Ministries, Mike and Rebecca, Beacon of Hope... but it's hard to know what we should give when we don't know what we'll be making.

Financially, we're stable for now. I'm still not sure how I'm going to pay tuition for this semester, but I have some options, and the fact that I get it reimbursed at the end makes it easier for me to borrow it from someone. Right now, we have an abundance, and I praise Him for it, and I pray I can be faithful with it, because I'm inclined to believe the abundance is so I can bless someone else. I just don't know who yet. I will be praying about that.

The house is still filled with various items we have collected over the years. My parents are helping us get rid of a lot of it, as well as cleaning up our yard. Also, Kevin and Kelsey have agreed to let Marie live with them for a little while so the house can get cleared and fixed up. I am so thankful to God for them. Once the house gets cleared, we can fix it up and show it to renters. It really is a great house.


here is list of things I have been thankful for:

My parents have been incredible. The task has left Marie and I a bit overwhelmed, and almost paralyzed. My mom and dad have taken over, and have helped us get everything we need. I can't wait until Jude is old enough for me to show him the same love. My brother-in-law has sacrificed his entire summer, as well as a lot of his own resources to help us get the basement finished, and I am very grateful to him for that. Mike Watters came over and mowed my lawn on Monday evening, which was a tremendous help. There are moving to Uganda to minister to orphans that live in the slums. May God bless them, and I pray they receive all the support they need to do His Work. Doug and Cindi Downer have given us a place to stay for as long as we need, which is such a tremendous blessing. Laura Long has given me a room in her house to stay at for free, which is so very generous of her. God has safely brought me to Los Angeles as well. My Grandmother and Grandfather bought me lunch on Tuesday and gave me $100! I am so very thankful for them. Joe Lonetti and Ian Pitkanen came over and helped me pack on Tuesday and saw me off. What incredible young men they are. Especially Ian, who at 17 years old is so sharp, and loves the Lord sincerily. I am so thankful for him and his family that have been attending Beacon of Hope. My pastor, Steve Lonetti, took me out for Pizza Tuesday evening, and we had a wonderful time. I am looking forward to seeing him in March. There are so many other things to be thankful for, but for the sake of brevity, let me just say this: God has been blessing us tremendously, and it has been a privaledge watching Him work around me.

Well, even with the rest, my mind is still a bit scattered. Spiritually, I am doing well. I have been given grace to persue holiness over the next several weeks, which is difficult when I am alone. When I am not surrounded by people, it's harder for me to avoid pitfalls, but, if you read the title of this blog, I am resolved, by the power of the Spirit of God, to be holy as much as I am able. I'm convinced that unless my everyday walk is marked by a passionate pursuit of holiness, I will be useless to God. I don't just mean in what people see, either. I have always been able to put on an excellent front, but I would rather have people detest me falsley than praise me for only what they see. I would rather be holy and usless than acheive any measure of success knowing that my thoughts and attitudes have violated God. If they do, and believe me, they do, I repent, and thank God for the cross. I remind myself that Christ is the supreme example of a man who was despised, rejected, detested, and abandoned by even His closest friends, but still in every way holy. Because of that, I am free. :)

"Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death! Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!"

Romans 7:24,25b

Saturday, August 1, 2009

12 more days...

A lot has happened, and a lot is going on, so we'll see how concise I can be. This is difficult for me. Let's see if I can remember everything.

My parents came over and helped us clear out a lot of the garage. The garage now looks somewhat clean, and it's wonderful. We're now working on getting all of the things out of the house and into the garage to be put in storage. There is a large load of trash in there right now that my dad is coming to get this morning. Once that is gone, it will look even cleaner.

The basement has been primed thanks to help from Seth and Laura, and Kevin and Kelsey are coming over today to hopefully help us paint it. Besides paint, trim, doors, flooring, and just about everything in the bathroom... the basement is done.

As far as getting out of the military is concerned, I ran into a few snags. I went to turn in my equipment, and found out I'm missing about $900 worth of gear. I've been hitting ebay up to get what I can, and think I may be able to get most of it for about $300. The most expensive thing I'm missing is my sleeping bag, which costs about $260. I'm hoping I can get one online for about $130. The other things are odds and ends that I either lost, or it got stolen.

This is bad news, especially considering our very tight financial situation, but God is faithful. I looked at our finances yesterday, and discovered that based on the amount of money we have, the amount I know we are for sure getting, and the projected expenses we will have, we have just enough to survive the for the first semester at TMS. I'm not sure if God will only allow us to have this now to trust Him for the next semester, or if He'll give us more for the future, but I am confident that He will survive.

One more note, someone asked me if not being able to rent out the house would keep me from going to seminary, and I said I'm not too worried about it because we could survive a couple of months without renting, and even if we couldn't find someone, we could rent it for a few hundred dollars less than our payment... but that doesn't really answer the question. The truth is, this house will not stop us from completing seminary. We will try to keep it, but if we can't, it's not the end of the world. It's just a house, and though we love it, and we are very thankful for it, we know it's still just house. I'm not sure if the Lord will allow us to keep it, but either way, we are resolved to complete seminary at TMS. Besides, there are other places to live in St. Paul. (hint hint, we are still adamant about moving back!)

So there is our update. It's been an interesting transition shifting from trusting our own resources and abilities to trusting God. The only thing I have observed is that although it seemed at times we were trusting ourselves, it was always God that was providing for us. It may not have been as obvious, but it was still God's provision.

On a spritual note, I haven't had much time to process everything quite yet. I wish all of this trusting God and watching Him work miracles to help us get everything done has led to spiritual bliss, but it hasn't always been the case. What has struck me, though has been the amazing consistency of Christ. Christ's faithfulness has not been contingent on anything. Whether I'm up or down, Christ is consistent. Clearly, Christ is leading me. He is Lord, and I am so thankful for that. As I learn to lean on Him for physical needs, He is teaching me to leanon Him for spiritual needs as well.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Lord, remember me when you get your kingdom...


How different are we than the thief on the cross? The only reason I pose this question is because I am about to attend the best seminary in the world. Today I received very wise counsel from some dear friends of ours, and what they said really meant a lot to Marie and I for a couple of reasons. The first one being both have been walking with the Lord longer than I have been alive. It's good to get counsel from people who have known the Lord longer than you. Their desire to seek after and follow the Savior is evidenced in their joy, and how they live their lives. The second would be their motivation was purely out of love for us, and nothing else. It's easy to give advice, and everyone has an opinion, but rarely are the motivations the same as theirs.

Another reason I loved their counsel was because although they never brought up specific verses, their advice was straight from the Bible. in I Corinthians 8:1, Paul made this simple statement: "knowledge puffs up, but love builds up." There are many other verses that talk about this concept, and even Randy Alcorn wrote a book called "The Grace and Truth Paradox" I would recommend, but the idea is simple. All the knowledge I gain from the Master's Seminary may equip me to preach, and give me the tools I need to be an effective church leader, but none of it will make my walk closer with God, or make me anymore holier than I was before I started. That is a work that is left primarily to the Holy Spirit.

The Master's Seminary, or Grace Community Church in particular, is wonderful place for individuals to grow spiritually. Their concern was that I remember to fall in love with God, not just the beauty of His Truth, or to put it another way, That I allow the Truth of God and His Word to saturate my soul, not just give me ammunition I can sling at others some would consider "less enlightened."

It's true, there is a high concentration of Biblical Truth at the Master's Seminary. There is no denying that. (well, I suppose some would) And it's also true, while I love the Lord sincerely, and I want to know Him, there are so many different things I don't know, and so many things I still need to learn. I'm also very inexperienced. I'm a relatively new Christian. I was saved about seven or eight years ago, but it really wasn't until the last 4 or so years I started to see significant growth. I have a natural bent towards pride, self-reliance, arrogance, and can at times be condescending. I fear what my sinful flesh would do with a little truth.

Thankfully, I have the Spirit of God working in me, and by His Grace he will deliver me from that. I have reason to suspect that he already has, and one big reason for that is because He has so very graciously blessed Marie and I with people like Mike and Rebecca Watters who we know will not be shy to tell us if our attitudes are not in line with Scripture. I have such a deep respect for the people God has put in my life, like the Watter's and so many others, and can't tell you how thankful I am to be launched from such a wonderful church as Beacon of Hope in Saint Paul.

This is the passage that comes to mind, and it's something I will carry with me through seminary as a reminder that whatever pinhole of knowledge the Lord allows us to have about Him and His redemptive plan, (it's available to everyone, by the way) I will look at the example of the epitome of Truth Itself, and be diligent to mimic His humility.

Therefore if there is any encouragement in Christ, if there is any consolation of love, if there is any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and compassion, make my joy complete by being of the same mind, maintaining the same love, united in spirit, intent on one purpose. Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Have this attitude in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a slave, and Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.

Jesus Christ, God in the flesh, did not flaunt His deity around, or demand from anyone the glory He deserved, but He emptied Himself, taking the form of a slave. I pray any knowledge and experience I acquire at Masters will drive me to the same place. I want strong convictions, I want to stand for Truth, but only in a way that pleases God and brings Him honor.